I can relate with people who completely put their all, everything that they have, into relationships. Like to the point where you physically change becuase of that other person. For isntance, i'm one of those people that when I feel guilty about something, I get sick to my stomach. When i'm sad about a person, typically I don't eat and have trouble stomaching food. It just loses its taste and I never really feel good. I don't sleep either.
I know that sounds depressing lol but I am just very in touch with things I guess. It's been a few days I beleive since the official breakup with my ex. After that I couldn't eat anything without feeling so sick I thought it would come back up (trying to create not a lot of imagary here). I couldn't sleep yet I was exhausted. I stayed awake all night trying to get even an hour of sleep.
However, even though it's only been a few days, I feel as though I am making progress. I can stomach small amounts of food now and have been sleeping like a baby lol. After 3 sleepless nights, i've been having to catch up on it.
I keep telling myself that I will not let this bring me down. I will wake up in the morning and be full of joy, be positive. Becuase I am me. I am beautiful. I am strong. And God is with me.
So am i still sad about the breakup? Of course. And that will take time to die down. But it's not bogging down on my life as much as it has been. I still think about him often and sometimes I feel the sadness creeping in. But when I feel it coming, I take a deep breath, and try to force a new thought in my head. Something that makes me happy.
I do not allow myself to listen to sad music. That just fuels the fire. Now I am starting to do things that are good for ME. I'm working out again, watching my eating habits. I have a goal that i'm reaching towards. I have set several goals for myself that I intend to reach. Life will go forward without him.
A LITTLE BACKGROUND INFO: For those who don't know, my boyfriend and I of 4 years broke up. Distance is a sad thing.
If you are dealing with a breakup, chin up! Don't let things bring you down! You are a beautiful, strong woman!
Thanks for reading, guys!
With love,
Liz
