Breakups

You probably already know by the title of this post how this blog post is going to sound. Today i'm not so much talking for inspiration or to encourage, but I guess for my own determination. So some backstory. I dated a guy in highschool and we went out for just over two years. He was my first legitamite boyfriend. I loved him. I still love him. 

The heart aches in ways that words can't quite say. But the thing about any emotion, is that with courage and the strength of friends supporting you, you can get up. You can walk through hell and live to see the other side. To love the other side. To love you. 

It's also one thing to say it and another to believe it and live it out. There was a time in my life where I really enjoyed being my bad single self. It was the first time that we had broken up and I initiated it, feeling God moving me to take the first step. It was hard, yes, but I had so many people in my school cheering me on. If any of you are in college by the way. I highly recommend Intervarsity Christian Fellowship. Talk about a good friend group. 

I know in my heart that moving on and being happy is both what I should do and what I deserve. But I keep thinking about him and my heart feels like its being squeezed. I feel drained and lifeless. 

Then again.

I've been through this once before. 

I've felt the numbness after the pain that i'm almost in right now. It ebs and flows but eventually you just go numb. Then after the numbness you move on. And everything's the past. I keep reminding myself of that. That this too shall pass. 

So. I'm taking action. For myself and for my fellow women who may look up to me now or someday. This will not eat away my life. This is what my head says, even though my heart wants me to cry in bed all day and not go to class. But even if my heart is in my stomach and my life feels "like its ending", i'm going to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I'll drag my heart along for awhile if I have to. 

So this is what the plan is, regardless of how I feel. I'm going to do everything for me and for God. I'm going to take time out everday for my God and be on top of my school work and be busy. I'm going to take care of myself. Lose those extra ten pounds ive been wanting to lose officially. I'm gonna get a job at the children's clinic. Do things! Make friends! Live life! Even if I don't want to. 

So consider this update 1. Journaling helps sometimes and I also want to see my progess. So i'm going to post frequently how i'm feeling and where I am at in the breakup process. 

Thanks so much for listening, guys. :) 

Stay beautiful.

Liz

I want some Tattoos!!

Okay, so I've really been into tattoos this past two years. I've really wanted to get one but I wanted to start out small to see how everything goes. So I've finally come up with the idea that I want exactly how I want to  get it!

I don't want this exact tattoo or even this location, just wanted to show you a little bit of Hebrew writing so you could see how pretty it is. I want to get "I walk in freedom" in Hebrew tattooed on the inside of my left or right foot. That's really the only decision now is to decide which foot the tattoo should go on :). 

Hopfully I'll get it soon as i'll be turning 21 and I think it'll be a nice way to usher in a new age for me lol full of legal drinking, more studying, and new experiences. Although not much drinking to be honest as I don't really find drinking all that entertaining or beneficial lol. 

Anyways, really excited and I thought I would jot down my thoughts a bit before it happens. 

I will definetly be uploading pictures of the tattoo once I get it! It'll be my first after all! 

 ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

10 Things To Do Before I Die

10 things to do before I die...

The topic was brought to my attention from a fellow YouTuber who did the video: SharksandPandas. Click here to see his channel. :) I may still do a video on this on my own channel, but for now I think i'll just get my thoughts out on Blogger first. 

For fun, here's a few things I think I would like to do before I die:

1. I'm only almost 21, so marriage is still in my future. It's not the number one thing on my list, but it's still there :)

2. Go to Scotland. This needs to happen at some point or another. Can't go my entire life without being in the homeland of a bunch of attractive scottish men..

3. Travel the world. Because I do love traveling :).

4. Live in either Virginia or California. 

5. Publish a novel. 

6. Become a nationally known child psychologist. 

7. Become a nationally known women's speaker. (do those conflict?)

8. Bowl a 300.

9. Ride the Giant Drop at 6 Flags.

10. Have two kids :) one girl and one boy. I would name the boy Lewis for sure, and the girl Avery. 



So those are some things I would do before I die :) Not anything too crazy I don't think lol but they seem like pretty achievable goals. There's still more I think that I would do, like meet Gerard Butler, but those are the first to come into my head! 

If you guys are interested, I would love for you to come check out my YouTube channel! I post videos every week!

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Thanks for reading and i'll talk to you guys later!

 Bye!

 xoxoxo