Getting Through the Hard Times + Staying Positive

I can relate with people who completely put their all, everything that they have, into relationships. Like to the point where you physically change becuase of that other person. For isntance, i'm one of those people that when I feel guilty about something, I get sick to my stomach. When i'm sad about a person, typically I don't eat and have trouble stomaching food. It just loses its taste and I never really feel good. I don't sleep either. 

I know that sounds depressing lol but I am just very in touch with things I guess. It's been a few days I beleive since the official breakup with my ex. After that I couldn't eat anything without feeling so sick I thought it would come back up (trying to create not a lot of imagary here). I couldn't sleep yet I was exhausted. I stayed awake all night trying to get even an hour of sleep. 

However, even though it's only been a few days, I feel as though I am making progress. I can stomach small amounts of food now and have been sleeping like a baby lol. After 3 sleepless nights, i've been having to catch up on it. 

I keep telling myself that I will not let this bring me down. I will wake up in the morning and be full of joy, be positive. Becuase I am me. I am beautiful. I am strong. And God is with me. 

So am i still sad about the breakup? Of course. And that will take time to die down. But it's not bogging down on my life as much as it has been. I still think about him often and sometimes I feel the sadness creeping in. But when I feel it coming, I take a deep breath, and try to force a new thought in my head. Something that makes me happy. 

I do not allow myself to listen to sad music. That just fuels the fire. Now I am starting to do things that are good for ME. I'm working out again, watching my eating habits. I have a goal that i'm reaching towards. I have set several goals for myself that I intend to reach. Life will go forward without him. 



A LITTLE BACKGROUND INFO: For those who don't know, my boyfriend and I of 4 years broke up. Distance is a sad thing. 


If you are dealing with a breakup, chin up! Don't let things bring you down! You are a beautiful, strong woman! 



Thanks for reading, guys! 
With love,

Liz

Breakups

You probably already know by the title of this post how this blog post is going to sound. Today i'm not so much talking for inspiration or to encourage, but I guess for my own determination. So some backstory. I dated a guy in highschool and we went out for just over two years. He was my first legitamite boyfriend. I loved him. I still love him. 

The heart aches in ways that words can't quite say. But the thing about any emotion, is that with courage and the strength of friends supporting you, you can get up. You can walk through hell and live to see the other side. To love the other side. To love you. 

It's also one thing to say it and another to believe it and live it out. There was a time in my life where I really enjoyed being my bad single self. It was the first time that we had broken up and I initiated it, feeling God moving me to take the first step. It was hard, yes, but I had so many people in my school cheering me on. If any of you are in college by the way. I highly recommend Intervarsity Christian Fellowship. Talk about a good friend group. 

I know in my heart that moving on and being happy is both what I should do and what I deserve. But I keep thinking about him and my heart feels like its being squeezed. I feel drained and lifeless. 

Then again.

I've been through this once before. 

I've felt the numbness after the pain that i'm almost in right now. It ebs and flows but eventually you just go numb. Then after the numbness you move on. And everything's the past. I keep reminding myself of that. That this too shall pass. 

So. I'm taking action. For myself and for my fellow women who may look up to me now or someday. This will not eat away my life. This is what my head says, even though my heart wants me to cry in bed all day and not go to class. But even if my heart is in my stomach and my life feels "like its ending", i'm going to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I'll drag my heart along for awhile if I have to. 

So this is what the plan is, regardless of how I feel. I'm going to do everything for me and for God. I'm going to take time out everday for my God and be on top of my school work and be busy. I'm going to take care of myself. Lose those extra ten pounds ive been wanting to lose officially. I'm gonna get a job at the children's clinic. Do things! Make friends! Live life! Even if I don't want to. 

So consider this update 1. Journaling helps sometimes and I also want to see my progess. So i'm going to post frequently how i'm feeling and where I am at in the breakup process. 

Thanks so much for listening, guys. :) 

Stay beautiful.

Liz

I want some Tattoos!!

Okay, so I've really been into tattoos this past two years. I've really wanted to get one but I wanted to start out small to see how everything goes. So I've finally come up with the idea that I want exactly how I want to  get it!

I don't want this exact tattoo or even this location, just wanted to show you a little bit of Hebrew writing so you could see how pretty it is. I want to get "I walk in freedom" in Hebrew tattooed on the inside of my left or right foot. That's really the only decision now is to decide which foot the tattoo should go on :). 

Hopfully I'll get it soon as i'll be turning 21 and I think it'll be a nice way to usher in a new age for me lol full of legal drinking, more studying, and new experiences. Although not much drinking to be honest as I don't really find drinking all that entertaining or beneficial lol. 

Anyways, really excited and I thought I would jot down my thoughts a bit before it happens. 

I will definetly be uploading pictures of the tattoo once I get it! It'll be my first after all! 

 ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

10 Things To Do Before I Die

10 things to do before I die...

The topic was brought to my attention from a fellow YouTuber who did the video: SharksandPandas. Click here to see his channel. :) I may still do a video on this on my own channel, but for now I think i'll just get my thoughts out on Blogger first. 

For fun, here's a few things I think I would like to do before I die:

1. I'm only almost 21, so marriage is still in my future. It's not the number one thing on my list, but it's still there :)

2. Go to Scotland. This needs to happen at some point or another. Can't go my entire life without being in the homeland of a bunch of attractive scottish men..

3. Travel the world. Because I do love traveling :).

4. Live in either Virginia or California. 

5. Publish a novel. 

6. Become a nationally known child psychologist. 

7. Become a nationally known women's speaker. (do those conflict?)

8. Bowl a 300.

9. Ride the Giant Drop at 6 Flags.

10. Have two kids :) one girl and one boy. I would name the boy Lewis for sure, and the girl Avery. 



So those are some things I would do before I die :) Not anything too crazy I don't think lol but they seem like pretty achievable goals. There's still more I think that I would do, like meet Gerard Butler, but those are the first to come into my head! 

If you guys are interested, I would love for you to come check out my YouTube channel! I post videos every week!

My Youtube Channel

Thanks for reading and i'll talk to you guys later!

 Bye!

 xoxoxo

Moving, moving, moving....

Hey everyone out there!

I haven't written to you in awhile on the account that I haven't had much internet access aside from sitting down at Chic Fil A to check up on some emails and people's comments on my YouTube channel.
It has been a really long time since I last moved, over a decade, and i'm not sure how well I am adjusting to the entire experience. On the upside, i'm not techincally living with my family anymore. They moved to Texas and I am moving back in a few weeks! I'm not moving back to the same city. but close enough right?

It's a strange feeling, leaving people behind. It's like the two of you forget each other and they don't exist anymore. Life goes on and the world doesn't just stop like you almost hope it would or think it should. But i'm hoping to see light at the end of this tunnel. Even though I feel a lot of loss for my friends and everything that I left behind, I still am looking forward to a bright future for myself.

I feel shaky on my feet but I know I can make it through. I'm sure if my future self could tell me anyhing right now, she would say just hold on, liz. It may seem scary now- all these new things- but you're going to make it. You're going to come out a stronger and better person for everything that you go through.

Now, off my soap box for a bit. Here's a pic of the new house i'm half living in!

It's not the most elegant house in the world but it is nice by any means! 

I do have to say that in my small amount of experiences here, the people are nice, the churches filled with good people, buildings and the land are well taken care of, and I have never been more sick of burgers in my life! If one good thing came of this, Texas has helped push me into a health kick! 

Cowboys, Chevron, & Minions!

Hey guys! So I thought today would just be a good time to update you all on what's going on in the Liz life. I saw Despicable Me 2 last night, on a lighter note, and it was sooo cute! I think it might actually be funnier than the first one! Normally I hate second movies becuase they aren't near as good as the first one, but this one was really good! I almost just wish I had seen it in 3D though!

On a fun note, I grabbed some more items for my apartment bedroom. It's all centered around my light blue chevron bedding which should really brighten up the space. I'm actually excited to start living there and for school to start, but watch me take back those words once it starts. I'm going to be putting up a room tour on my YouTube channel once i'm finished!

During the summers i'll be living in Texas with my parents. At least for the first summer, who knows where life will take me after that! But my mom always says that there'll be hot cowboys in Texas so I guess i'm not too sad to be moving away. I mean, there really aren't too many hot guys where I am now, and being post-breakup, i'm looking for some fresh fish. 

Anyways, i'll talk to you guys later! Love you bunches! 

Liz

Check out my YouTube channel: 

http://www.youtube.com/user/lizvideos21

Things You Do When Locked Out of the House

This has been an interesting turn of events. On the one hand, I am phone-less and Ipod-less with only my laptop and I feel like i'm missing my right arm or something. They are both in my purse which is currently at my boyfriend's house which we are both presently locked out of. To top it off, it is storming cats and dogs out. We stayed in his car for awhile to wait out the storm, but Mother Nature decided to rear her ugly head to give me a nice red present (as the comercials go).

In a lot of pain and without pain meds, we both walked to my house (luckily it isn't so far), only to find that I had literally nothing at my house. My boyfriend ended up going back to his house (to catch his grandma before she left so he could get in) and I managed to find some ibuprofen in one of the drawers in my bedroom...not that Ibuprofen really does anything for epic cramps and soreness, but it made me feel better mentally.

On the bright side, my boyfriend was a sweetheart and did walk me home. Plus I think the Ibuprofen is helping slightly with the cramps...maybe i'm just getting used to them. #womenproblems

Anyways, i'm about to pass out but i'll explain more about what happened later!

Liz

xoxo